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- i kinda find most ‘magickal’ ‘esoteric’ (crowley-esque) thinking / traditions to be fundamentally the ploys of idle wealthy brats (or the otherwise chronically privileged) , aimed at justifying and reifying solipsistic self-interest and repudiation of any social responsibility or inhibition of their boundless entitlement . basically a deeply conservative right-wing neoliberal tradition
- i used to find value in a lot of transgressive ‘art’ / cultural production or whatever regardless of who the creator was but then started to realize that theres rly nothing ‘transgressive’ or subversive about straight white men steamrolling standards of decency & morality —> it’s basically the defining dominant force of the entire history of Western Civilization
- (in other words both start seeming like sites of and vehicles for the conservation , reinforcement + reproduction of traditional privilege and power centers , when theres at least an intimation or outright claim of the opposite)
- ((buts thats none of my business))
a skeletal, severely abbreviated fraction of autobiography. reading more like excerpted annotated outlines of a memoir, barely stretching just over a hundred pages padded with ample textless chapter divisions etc. worth it for the inimitable Chet Baker deadpan —near catatonic— stoicism that somehow, in its seemingly para-human indifference and detachment, conveys such an elevated sensitivity, psychic fragility and diffuse air of melancholy and portent that only such impassivity could delicately enough carry. and also for vignettes like these:
[of his experience aboard a troopship bound for Germany after enlisting in the Army illegally at 16] There was vomit everywhere, you could not escape the smell of it no matter where you went on the ship. Since there wasn’t anything alcoholic to drink, some of the guys mixed Aqua Velva with fruit juice. Everyone was getting loaded and fighting. Some went blind from the noxious aftershave mixture. Altogether, it was a trip I could not easily forget.
I spent a couple of weeks at her apartment, but unfortunately some joker ripped off the door of her Corvette when I was using the car. He didn’t even stop. We had a few words about that, and fought about some other things as well. It all ended in my telling her to get fucked.
[of being brought to court on drug charges in England] I really couldn’t take the whole thing seriously. All those seemingly pompous fools with their white wigs. Needless to say, I was found guilty by his lordship.
despite its brevity, a satisfying, shimmering glimpse into imo one of the top 5 most compelling voices in all recorded music (and pretty standard mid-century jazz-genius-junkie archetype). for a longer look, a couple biographies are supposed to be good, but u prob cant do better than this.
Nocturnes for the King of Naples (Edmund White)
i just. really loved it.
somewhat slow-going and hard to read cuz of the mercurial, impressionistic prose, but for the same reason prob the most unique and enthralling reading experience i can remember.
sleep is mad real: social jet lag, human energy economies & the tyranny of compulsory oblivion
been somewhat captivated by sleep lately
bought this book at punk rock flea market cuz it says SLEEP
my cell phone battery life blows. But its energy economy is a monumental improvement over humanity’s. on average, we have to charge like 3-4 times a day, and then SHUT DOWN COMPLETELY for 6-8 hrs a day. we are abysmal technology. i hope steve jobs is giving god industrial design pointers in non-existence right now.
whats worse, the fascistic sleep regime seems to have a draconian bio-justice system.
The findings echo previous research linking higher BMI to sleep deprivation and irregular sleep schedules. In particular, numerous studies have found an increased risk of obesity — as well as chronic diseases such as diabetes — among shift workers
Some of the proposed explanations for the link between shift work and obesity, such as irregular meal times and metabolism disruptions at the cellular level, may help explain the social jet lag findings as well,
cellular mutiny commanded by the shadowy overlord of forced, rationed oblivion
i love lana del rey.
i love her for all the reasons ppl r ambivalent about/h8 on her: deeply problematized/unchartable authenticity, tranny-chic appearance, lack of any sort of totality, desperate & severe ‘omega point' hauntology without being as egregiously ‘retro’ as amy winehouse or adele, so i can actually stand her music.
im also not paying that close attention, which always helps.